It is a moment by moment choice to lay down my life for my family.

I am called by God to be a wife and mother and so I take that calling seriously.  The love that I have inside for my children is such a deep love, one that can only come from the heart of God. 

            I knew it was real love when I even loved their cry,

            I even loved their poopy diapers.

In our travels I miss out on a lot of activities that once I would have enjoyed.  I don’t always get to kayak across the lake or down the river.  I don’t always get to four wheel for hours to a hidden meadow and spend time alone with my dear husband.

But, instead I get to climb the smaller boulders with my wee ones.  I get the privilege to watch them when they splash in the water or hike down the shorter trail.

Reality is that I don’t miss out on a thing, in fact, I have such a wonderful time when all my children and husband can do activities together. 

We don’t miss out on anything.

I still get to spend wonderful time with my hubby, maybe not on a weekend getaway, but in the morning when we sit outside the camper, reading our bibles together, sipping coffee as we sit at the base of a mountain or by a glimmering lake.

Put the kids to bed on time and dear Shae and I get to snuggle in bed, too exhausted to go anywhere, and watch a movie or read a book together. 

No, I don’t miss out on anything by giving up my rights or my “old” desires….I have gained a much better life, just like Jesus promised I would.